Ok, I give up. I failed utterly. Having begun this month full of misplaced confidence, I must now admit that the great NaNoWriMo has defeated me. For those of you who don’t know what I’m on about, NaNoWriMo is National Novel Writing Month – see what they did there? The idea is that no-one who writes sets out to write a first draft, people set out to write a finished novel. This is impossible (debate…) and frustrating, and leads to many projects being abandoned. I have had this problem, obsessively re-writing the first 6,000 words of a story but never actually getting any more than that on the page. So, NaNoWriMo gets people to pledge to write a fifty thousand word novel in a month. 30 days. November. 50k. Ha. That’s 1,666 words a day. It’s not coincidence that the last three digits of that are the devil’s number.
I started well, by cheating. Well, I had written the beginning of this novel (it’s a children’s story, a kind of modern fairytale, since you ask) so many times that I sort of knew where I was going. So the first 6,000 words or so were easy. A day’s work. Then I conveniently got sick. Ill enough to stay off work, but well enough that when I woke up from my fevered sleep I could plough through a few thousand more words. And so, for a week or so, I was on track, ahead of the game, even. But then, sadly, life intervened. I’m still getting my head around the whole full-time-job thing, and what with that and Boyfriend stealing my laptop for a week (not strictly true, but effectively true), I found myself rapidly falling by the wayside. I had followed the advice of the official NaNo website (www.nanowrimo.org) and told as many people as possible that I was doing this project, in order to keep me going when I got lazy through the fear of the shame that would ensue were I to quietly give up. I should point out that this was general advice and not specifically aimed at me, although it was fairly pertinent! Having gleefully announced my growing word counts to all and sundry, suddenly I was less forthcoming, and had to defend myself to Boyfriend’s Dad that I wasn’t just writing the same work over and over again, a la Jack Nicholson in The Shining.
Anyway, I wrote lots yesterday, but too little too late, and as midnight gets closer I am writing this rather than having one last push, as I think 24,347 words might be a little beyond even my speedy typing. So, me and my half-a-novel are going to gracefully retire, and get an early night before braving the icy winds of Cambridge to cycle to work horribly early tomorrow morning. It’s funny, even though by any objective criteria I abjectly failed to complete a self-imposed task, I’m still pretty chuffed that I’ve got 26,653 words. That’s more than I’ve ever written before, so onwards and upwards, and I’ll post if/when I finish it…